Today I made a decision, a decision to work towards something that I have wanted for a very, very long time. Something that more than likely, I still won’t be ready for, but something that I will do everything in my power to try and achieve regardless of the odds.
Today I decided that finally, after two years of taking little tiny baby steps and constantly waiting for the fall back, that I am going to start trusting in the strength of my own body again and start pushing just that little bit further.
Today I decided that regardless of the expectations of others and regardless of the likelihood of this situation ending the way I imagine it will, this dream of mine is something that I really, truly want. This dream of mine is something that would make me happier than you could even begin to imagine and despite everything, today I decided that it was finally time to take that leap of faith and go for it.
Today I decided that regardless of the outcome, this was something worth taking a chance on. Regardless of whether or not all of this ends in celebration or in heartache, I am going to put everything that I have into this. Regardless of whether this becomes another line on the long list of disappointments or marks the beginning of my dreams check list, at least I will have worked towards something. At least this time, even at worst, I won’t fail through lack of trying and at best, I will be standing tall and proud knowing that I was the one who made this happen.
Now for those of you who are worried about the consequences, please trust that I know what I’m doing. Trust that I will continue to take things one step at a time, one day at a time and one obstacle at a time. Trust that I am going to push as hard as I need too and as hard as I can, but not quite hard enough to turn my forward movements into backward spirals. Trust that I am going to listen to my body and give myself the best chance that I possibly can to make this dream become a reality.
Trust that this newfound inspiration is just the beginning. The beginning of a new and wonderful adventure, even more amazing than I ever could have dreamed of and today; today is where it all begins.